Nice N Bad Day/Memories

Good Memories=Today Date I will Never Forget Today I went Out With My Wife And We Have A Romantic and Nice Time HAving together I just want to said I love Her ^ ^ weeheeee!!!

Sad Moment=When I was Dating with my gf my mum keep calling me and ask me to back and i was doesnt know bcause my i phone sot sot de keep cant recieve phone line and once i reach house my mum straight shoutted on me and keep scolding and asking me Just Now WHere Did I go and i said i at the cc and my mum go the cc fnd me and she said dint saw me and all those fucking stuff out from her mouth to start scolding again and i inside she heart i am just a rubbish,useless and evil i have nothing good in she heart i am only the fucking worst kid ever in her heart.....What Can I do ? Tolerate To continue My Fucking Life.In ths world I have Nothing All I have Is My Wonderful Precious GF Akemi !

20th December 2009

Once Something Is I make SPoiled Or I do Wrong Something No matter How normal Or How serious it is my mum will gonna blame and scold me for forever If My Sister IS DIfferent Once they Wrong Or Make Spoiled something My Mum Will Scold FOr Only 1 Times And Not Like Me.WHy What is This call? This Call THe Sided Love..... And last time i fight with my sister friend twice with different people and those 2 idiot make me 1st and i fight back and it was doesnt my fault or my wrong but my mum just at there scold me and said your wrong and said me no manners all that and support my sister friend and not supporting she own son.I was Thinking She Izit My Mum Or She Picked me From The Rubbish Dumb ? WHy My Mum Or My Family Have TO Be Mean To Me? I am Just A Normal Kid I want a normal life i want a Family Love And my family support But i Know I wont Get It For Forever WHy My Life Have To Be SO Fucking Sucks and why oher kids have A Better Life example Like Rich,Mum and Dad Always stand on their site whatever is the son is wrong or correct...But Me? No If Not My Wrong also Have To Be my Wrong .My Life was More worst then a dog or Even Worst then a animal Life. Because my mum treat animal or insect Good also Doesnt want to treat me better. My Mum Just Know To Said Me You SHould Be Proud and appreacite Your Own Life You are In A good life You Want What Got What...Really? I doesnt Feel That In My Life At all. I feel Like Diffrent I want what Dont Have what and i dont wan those things happen it will be happen the world Like Want me To Dissapear or Die

[L] DaRKnIGhT 19 december 2009

I at last get my I Phone Mini ANd My Mood SHould be Happy But I am Not Because Of My FUcking 2nd sister always need to quarrel with me or making me sad only she will be feeling happy.My Damn fucking 2nd sister quarrel with me because for a sit and my mum is just beside her and is not my fault as people said 1st come 1st serve and my mum is helping her to scold me i was so fucking angry and no mood that time....After That Going Back House And WHen we reached house my 2nd fucking sister When up to she room and purposely ownselves make spoiled she own hair straighter stuff and blame it on me and scold on me said i make it spoiled.! I was SO Fucking Damn angry and angry! And i Fight Back With her and suddenly my mum come up and call me to shut up! and i scold back my mum>>(aiya you always help her dont help me de larh you are so sided love and my mum scold me back by saying still want to fight back ? and i was at there tolerate and just keep my mouth shut and let her scold scold scold.after that i was hiding in my own room and my 2nd sister is so fucking no manners dont know how to knock the door and just come in and throw my earring stuff to the floor and scold me (POkai) i was so angry but what can i do i was just at there keep quite and tolerate...


I Hate MY Life Please Give Me A Better Life
From:HeartlessZaii

17th December 2009 [A Day Make Me Think Back Many Bad Memories]

This Day IS I most Sad And This Day Is One Of My worst Day i ever had. Firstly My Sis Bought A Phone For Me ANd I thought she will give it to me and I asking Her Where is my phone and she said You Need To Be Good And Treat Me good Only I wIll Give It To you I was Like 180Degree Change Because I Was So Angry If you really want to give it to me just give to me no need to do this to me....2nd my Dad When I am Small Around 2 To 4 years old we go to vacation with my hold family and my dad friend family To Port Dickson..When We Reach all of us was going to The swimming pool and all of them leave me alone and my dad teaching and playing with my dad friend son and just leave me alone at there and suddenly i drop to the adult pool and i almost die by Drowning and my dad was doesnt know luckily someone saw me and saved me...My Mum...? No Comment........
My 2nd sister I hate Her the Most Because She Doesnt Treat me as her own brother She is Treating me like a dog or an animal.Example Like Phone She got 3 phone 1 she is using 2nd and 3rd phone Borrow to the friends and i ask my sis for borrowing 1st and she Also Dont Want To Borrow Me .. And I was so angry and i go to tell my mum and my mum doenst support me only support my sister but my mum ask my sis to ask back one of her friend for the phone and when the phone get back the phone like a piece of junk and ask me to use a piece of junk fucking phone... I was So Sad WHy My own sister treat other people Or Even A Dog Also better then treating she own brother ......

16 December 2009

HeartlessZaii=(One OF My Most Fucking Bad Luck And Bad Day I Ever Had)



HeartlessZaii Today Quarrel With Mum Because Of tuition Stuff And Others.....tuition stuff such as like i doesnt like this tuition and i lazy to go for tuition because i feel tuition is so wasting time and wasting money And I was no mood to going For tuition and i tell my mum i dont wanna go for tuition anymore and my mum scold me and saying you think you are so clever already izit?..I already know she gonna said that Because She Only Know How To seeing Me Down And Seeing My Weakness And She Wont Know I Have Anything Good She Just Know I am Bad ANd Worst In Her eyes I am Just A Piece Of Trash Or More worst then a trash . She always said i have a good life.i Was THinking Really?No I dont feel that! because i need a family love but i know i wont get it anymore and i want freedom such as my mum dont call me or asking me where i am or Try To set a timing For Me To Get Back To Home I feel Like So Fuck and so fared out with this kind of life And I Know What Am I DOing and What Kind Of Friend i Mixing and I will Be Back WHen I feeling going back home.... I Feel My Mum Was So Irritating She Said anything Also Correct And WHat I Said Is Wrong And I Doesnt Do Wrong But She Like Want Me To Admit That I Am Wrong.....


Love Problem=Fucking Retard Ask Me If You Want to Know I Am Not tELLing This Problem in Public Because I feel So Sad And Angry 0n It

Enemy Of The Day=Zinyi... Zinyi Is A Fucking Bitch,retarded,Cheap Hooker,Blood Sucker And More Bad Things ABout Her..Zinyi Is A Kind Of Person who love to sabotaj Others And Making You Broke up With yOur Own Bf/Gf She is A Love Destroyer And SHe Is Good In acting Too.I Feel Pity On her mum because borning a evil to this world.....Sorry To Said That But I Really Want To Tell You Guys SHe Is A Bitch Beware From This Bitch...Stay away From Her Before You Get Hurt Or Get sabotaj From This Fucking Retarded Bitch....

Acting To Be More Happy But I Am Trully Heart Pain And Hurt Right Now~No One Will Care About Me...

[That All What I Want To Said For Today]

15 december 2009 afternoon

when I Woke Up That time and i straightly go to the computer and i saw she wrote something to me and i was chatting with her and chat about yesterday things but she just like wanted to showing me what i did wrong and she friends is the mrs good people and wanted to saying me i am the mr bad people. my feeling like so sad and my heart was so pain and my tears was keep dropping on that moment but she like no feeling just like cheh sad jiu sad la none of mybuisness like that. i was thinking and i doesnt do anything wrong and it was she friend wrong but i need to said is my wrong because i doesnt want to quarrel with her..SomeMore I was having fever,flu,cough but she doesnt try to ask me How was your sicks just at there for helping her friend and at there keep attack me and making me sad and heart pain...

15 December Middle Of The Night 3.39 Am

15 december i feel so sad with this day and i cried because of some love reasons and why everybody doesn't try to believe me,understand me and love me ?why?! what reason cause this happen?!

family problem= My Mum just know how to scold me and at there nagging me i feeling like so fared out. i at the mamak and my friend is a smoker and i doesnt smoke or even touch i just playing with the lighter and my mum suddenly came and making me lost face infront of my friend and dont even try to believe me and just Ask me loudly [You Smoke IZit!!!] i Said No and she said my body is full of smoke smell..Come On! My Friend Smoke And My Friend Blew On Me Sure Got Smell lo Idiot Dont always try to push the Dead Cat To Me! And I go Out How Late Also at My House area and what time i going back also need her to care ? And I wanted to go 1 of my friend house to stay overnight But I scare to ask my mum for the permission because i know my mum will never let me too Stay Overnight at My Friend House Because She Doesnt Believe me She Only Believe to Her Daughters Because She Daughter Already Have A Carier And I doesnt Have And SHe Only Know How said Me Just Know How TO Use Money And Doesnt Know How to earn money..What You expect I Am Just a 14th years old kid and i am just a teenager!!


Fucking Life~ Try TO Make MySelf Go Happy ....[Difficulties Makes Miracles]

4th December 2009

4th december Is One Of A Day I feel Very Very Very Tired And Feel very lazy to do things such as house work or go for tuition.

Family problem=? 4th december 2009 nothing much about my family things but still the same family situation it wont change.It will change but not changing to a good sight just change to be more worst and worst

Love=? No Comment But Just Want To Let Her Know I love her and hope she know and i hope she Love Me Too...


End For Today

30 november 2009

Nothing To Said Much And No Comment Just Feeling sad and dont know what should i do to make me feel happy back ....

26November2009

26 November 2009


I feel like my life is meaningless and any bad things,unlucky things will be happen on me,example like Family, Said My Mum 1st larh she always doesnt believe me and dislike me and she love to make me no face infront of my friends and her friends too.I In my Mum Heart I just a piece of trash Or A Useless People.2nd My Dad.Always Don't Find Me And I Remember My Dad And My Mum Quarrel With My Mum At The Midnight Since When I Am 12 And My Dad Said 1 word To My Mum (My Son Hoi Sei Me Geh Lo)when i hear on that time i don't even know what to do.what i can do is just hiding my own and cry.My Eldest sister. She Is the only one good to me and at least she wont hurt me but sometimes she don't let me do this or do that and she like to forcing me doing something that i doesnt like but i know she force me is want me to be good but sorry i really doesnt like it.My 2nd sister love to act good infront of any people but behind is just a silent backstabber and she always love to sabotaj me and i know she hate my dad and she is my half sister only.In Her Mind Only 1 word Want to make me out from her house.


Now Goes to Love. I Love Her But She Like Doesnt Love Me Or Just Thinking Me Is Just Playing around and just joking with her but i am not!

That all For Today From=HeartlesszZaii/Bryan